[Poem-a-Week] exchanging songs with strangers by Hannah Elliott
I sent another guy on Bumble the song you recommended to me when we first started talking. He asked me what my favorite song was and that’s the first one I thought of. Isn’t it ironic? I didn’t know when you sent it to me that it would become the way I feel about you. The lyrics were a prediction from a fortune teller, warning me that it wasn’t going to work out. But what did I know? I thought I had met someone who got me - the real me. I listen to that song on repeat through my headphones when I’m alone in my room. I try to keep the tears inside, so I don’t disturb the neighbor I share a wall with. I bought you a T-shirt of that band for Christmas, but I never got to give it to you. I thought maybe that band would become our thing. Now I wear it out even though it swallows my small frame. Secretly, I pretend it’s your shirt and I’m just borrowing it. It provides a sick sort of comfort. Jack from Bumble liked the song. I wonder if he’ll tell another girl about it, creating a vicious cycle of heartbreak. It’s not even my favorite song, just one that makes me feel connected to you. When I listen to it, I think of the first time I had ever heard it. It was new and exciting, like you. Now it’s a song I have engraved in my brain, its lyrics tattooed on my heart. I thought maybe if I listened to it enough, I would get sick of it, but what can I say? It’s a damn good song.